Three Poems by Hannah Lee Jones

Hannah Lee Jones

Hannah Lee Jones

Hannah Lee Jones's poetry, fiction, and essays have appeared in Literary Orphans and Orion, among other journals. She edits The MFA Project, a resource for writers pursuing their craft without an advanced degree, and grows vegetables on Whidbey Island in northwest Washington.

INSOMNIAC FUGUE

The time I drove a nail in my apartment 
and the girl who lived (more like hid) next door 
hurled an earthquake through the wall screaming
What the hell’s the matter with you, you bitch?
I didn’t so much as flinch, considering instead 
in the morbidly obese silence of my 1 a.m. insomnia 
whether this was fair – that her Amazon Prime 
boxes and grocery deliveries barricaded my door each night; 
that the hallways on fire with footsteps 
and slammed doors so she would Never Leave Home Again! 
had halfway driven a hole in my skull. 
And I promise this was more than my ear’s opinion 
of the delivery of the latest Guster album. 
This was the what-ness of someone I’d seen only in dreams 
where she ferried Pirate’s Booty to a mouth half the size 
of her eyeless face; the matter of my rage, 
downed in a whorl of melatonin and scotch
for a skin that was never thick enough. 
In Japan there lived a greatly revered ghost. 
The problem was that to look at him was to risk getting eaten. 
The gods love a devourer of sins, which is what he was: 
retiring and shy until he swallowed a salaryman 
with his words want please NOW. He tore 
through streets and alleys eating everything, 
dogs and lanterns and children until he had to vomit 
and start over. The gods must know his hunger 
is everyone’s; I suppose the gods also love us, 
though when I think of that ghost I wonder if they love 
the little hearts a world abandons as it rails at the sky
with glitter on her face and a sunburn on her back 
with no words to cry out, no flag even to fly 
that says Help! I don’t know how I got here
So no wonder I couldn’t sleep, amid the pounding
and shouting and screwing (hers and mine), the volts 
from her fridge throbbing the earbuds in my head;  
I was too busy to pull them out and still am. 
But I’m not hungry or lazy or retiring or shy, 
just too busy to shout nothing to what’s the matter with you? 
or reply fuck off to you bitch. Too busy even to say 
yes to could you please sign here? The nail 
under my hammer bent once and forever on please.

 

 

 

DEER DRIVER

How stupid of me, but there I was, and there 
you were:  my mother crossed first, but not before 
reminding me that it was foolish to wish upon 
a speeding star. But how does a fawn not throw 
herself before a beast that bright? I fixed my eyes 
on you instead of her, the arms of oaks and maples 
mirrored in the rumps of beasts streaking your stone
colored river, when your star screamed notes 
like arrows or the dirge of trees for my father
in famished meadows, the stain of him in tall grass, 
and I galloped, or maybe leapt, or was it fell 
to packed ground, the motes of choked dust 
up-kicking clouds from your tough silvery muzzle, 
and saw your face through its rained eyes, 
your own eyes wide with what I knew not as terror
but a raptor-mouthed prayer to our maker,  
the weep of long seconds like chum winking out 
over a thousand miles of water – before I stood 
and fled, without telling you to be careful later, 
and the woods swallowed me whole and red.

 

 

 

THE HAIR SPIDER 

She grew from a knot in the shower.
       I stooped to pick it up when she reared,
              screamed, monstered to a foam, 

and chased me westward; the sun
       was still high. She cowed me naked
              on the shore, and I asked her:

Didn’t I kill you before?  The wet 
       bullets of her eyes gave no reply and, 
              flashing red, walked down her face 

to marry her mouth and its morgue  
       of impossible flies. Resigned, 
              I bowed to her and offered

my head. When it was over 
       the sun had risen to new orange,
              to skies blowing clearer, 

to an earth looming softer, to the glinting 
       sounds of water – to a long-haired 
              woman bathing below,

and I swallowed a sweet terror: 
       that there had been two of me 
              always, like flecks in a mirror, 

each written from the other;  
       that my world would drain to its end
              if it spinned on without her.