Nancy Chen Long is the author of the chapbook Clouds as Inkblots for the War Prone (Red Bird Chapbooks, 2013). You’ll find her recent and forthcoming work in DIAGRAM, Sycamore Review, Mason’s Road, RHINO, and elsewhere. She received a B.S. in Electrical Engineering Technology and an M.B.A., worked as an electrical engineer, software consultant, and project manager, and more recently earned an M.F.A. As a volunteer with the local Writers Guild, Nancy coordinates the Lemonstone Poetry Reading Series and works with others to offer poetry workshops. She’s currently employed at Indiana University and lives in south-central Indiana.
It's only in October that a rock collector will uncover
a problem in her masonry work—a birthmark
or hardhearted mar, some telltale cicatrix that consumes
her attention. She needn't chisel very far
in the house that she built
to find at least one lapillus buried
in the sheetrock. Always that jagged piece
of rubble needing to be unearthed,
a tumbling rough she insists must be sanded
and ground over and over and over
until she is able to finally feel
it. Smooth enough to swallow.
A common stone herself,
she often inspects the same wall,
one widely distributed across many rooms.
Take, for example, the shared wall
of the living and dying
rooms where one wouldn't expect
to be able to excavate
a heartful of malachite.
I can think of no greener stone,
she might say. It reminds me of the greenest grass,
wouldn't you agree? For her sake, let us say yes.
From her mouth, the rock collector might manufacture
a hand or a heart, a north or a south, beliefs
that seem to bear true for a decade.
We are not fooled. We see she is stone—
masked, holes for a mouth and a heart—a green
that shines for a few years, maybe even ten.
But her heart is still just a hole.
Only the most excellent quarries, she’ll say.
Isn’t a stone worth living for?
Tell her it would be a mistake. Tell her
in ten years, she’ll be like all of her walls—pocked
with holes. She’ll demand proof.
It's only then that you should take her
to the garden on the other side of town,
the garden where no one she knows goes,
where the two baby stones sleep
side by side, both with their polished marble
hearts, their malachite mouths,
both swaddled in the greenest grass.